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Okay, well... I have never been married and just to be clear, I have nothing against women my own age while knowing that except for age, I have little else in common with those women who have already been married, divorced or widowed, have had families, with children and grandchildren when conversely, I have yet to experience any of those things in my lifetime and frankly, I am still hopeful, even at age 62, that such blessed opportunity to do so may just be awaiting me in the (hopefully) near future. I was into and out of relationships that went nowhere all too often because of my career choice to which I was wholly predisposed so that I might optimize my earning potential while still young enough to enjoy the fruits of my labor. I have worked in film/tv production for 30 years and am highly regarded among my friends, colleagues and peers. Success is at once, both elusive and rewarding, though for me it seems that it always came at the expense of my budding relationships that may have otherwise turned out differently, if not better than they did. But such choices have consequences that are brutally unforgiving. One never knows if it was the right choice but with the passing of time and dreams, once dreamed that never came true, as it suddenly became clear to me, were merely the currency of youth, that tend to depreciate in value with age . Now, I have come to a point in my personal development and mastered my craft to such an extent that self-discipline no longer precludes other pursuits in my personal life, but age, as it turns out, is a high price to pay for experience and this newfound wisdom. I just could never seem to stop the world from turning long enough to take the time to learn what I needed to learn and to become the person, for better or worse, that I have since become. And now, the road that appeared in the rearview mirror, far exceeded that which stretched out before me, I saw how it disappeared far on the horizon... and could not help but wonder where it leads and how much further along this lonesome path, I should continue to travel it alone. But I imagined what new adventure lay in wait on distant shores. I simply refuse to give up on my hope to meet someone who, like me, wants to get married and create a family. Thus, from my point of view, it is not the proverbial mid life crisis so much as it is simply, a lifelong dream that has yet to be realized and that I am just as unwilling now as ever before, to abandon the hope that someday it will. Regarding health and hygiene, I don’t smoke, drink or use drugs as a general rule, so thankfully, I have somehow managed to delay the aging process to some degree. I have always taken care of my health to maintain a certain quality of life and to avoid the hazards of bad habits that resulted in poor quality of life for my father, who passed away when I was 18. And although I could not have predicted at the time, how my life would play out, the choices I made along the way have served me well. So, as it happened, such lofty dreams as I still cling to at this stage of my life might have a chance of coming true later on.
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